Artist Statement(Advanced)[draft]

Artist Statement(Advanced)
[draft]
Shixiong Wang(Frank)

Honestly speaking, this is the second time that I force myself to think deeply about the reality as being an artist: Why do I make my art? How I make it? What my art is made out of? What my art means to myself?
Since I have been to America for more than two monthes. During this period of time which is so precious to myself that everyday I've been through was a special experience. When I think of the days which have passed away, sometimes I could not believe that I have overcome so many difficulties I have never imagined before and experienced so many kinds of sentiments which later provide me with great source material time and time again.
Once a period of time, I felt strongly emotional wave that I felt so helpless and lonely. Like what Akon had sung in his song "I'm so lonely. I have no body." Once one of my friends asked me if I missed my home. To my astonishment, the first sentence that slipped out is "I felt I've lost all the things I used to have in China." With a brave heart which is not brave enough to hold the responsibility of realizing my own dream and making my dear parents feel proud at the same time, I stood on the land that only an ocean away from my motherland alone. It is only a small step of an foreign student who is as normal as other foreign students, but it is truly a huge step to myself who chose to give up a cosy and warm home and challenge the reality in an completly different country.
When I was in primary school, a weird but true thought stemmed in my mind that "Black and white are enough to express all the feelings he/she wants." I used to hardly use color, exclude black and white in my drawings. Years have passed, I did not say that I was wrong but color,basicly played an important role in my first and second painting in America. The best illustration of this point: Remote Stare, truly change my opinion on color.
Till not, with my art teacher's instruction, my own diligence and most importantly, my passion. A series of art works have successfully shown to the public. I really cherish the chance I had right now for never before I have so much time that I can spend on art makings.
Basicaly, what I want to show the students and faculties of the school, in another word, the whole society I'm living in, is my way of expressing art and personal ideas.
Take on of my favorite paintings, the huge self-portrait, is an art work used to think of myself, a unique way to introspect myself as a person who tries his best to be his best in the perspective of an artist's way.
What is new to me is that almost every time I can have a chance to try a different kind of material. My self-portrait was drawn by using watercolor I seldom use when I was in China.I'm pretty sure that I will never attemp to use this kind of material instead of oilpaint if I were in China. To my surprise, I started to intend to use this new material and borrowed books learning it by myself. Results assured me that I can gain success if I can bravely try new things. For now, I feel excited to know I'm about to try something new, risk facing unexpectly failure at the same time.
As I was moving forward and kept painting, I realized what I have read can affect my art works. I gradually intended to combine meanings, actually they likely reflect my feelings and emotion, with my art works. When it comes to make a choice to keep it simple or depicting things in an complicated way, that really depends on the material I'm using and the theme of the work. Before I set the first strike on the paper, I'll think about the best way to reflect my intention through the composition and color. Avoid using the same way all the time, I deliberately obtain inspiration from those great artists'master pieces. Rembrant's portraits influenced how I use dark and light and leaders of modern symbolism gave me ideas of using symbles. Perhaps for the reason of my teacher's instruction or the ruless reality and complex emotion, I'm potentially turning my theme of art works from the assessment of the natural world to the exposion of my personal feelings.
Clearly to feel that I treat art as part of my life. I demonstrate the period from the day I entered Washington Lee High School to today as the explosion of my desire of doing art. Art, simply composed by only three letters, deligates a method of expressing feelings. More than a method, it symblizes an attitude of living in a certain perspective: sharing the beauty and harmony with others and brought joy to those who visulize the art work, in a brief sentence:"sharing is caring."